Archive for March, 2009

I’ve been a reader forever. I read at 4 years old. But of romance, I’ve only read since maybe my senior year of highschool. My tastes have ebbed and flowed depending on what was available. Only in the last 4 years or so have I actively sought a certain genre. But again, there is a trend that makes certain types of books more available. Regency seems to be the most popular lately. It has been said that it is fading out, but I haven’t seen evidence of that. I have seen that other’s are making a surgence, without diminishing the others. (I think the reason for that is because there are as many varied tastes and likes as there is people. And also because reading is one enjoyable pasttime that will not be hindered overmuch by the economy-some, but not much.)

I’ve read tons of regencies. (haha, i made an unintentional pun.) I’ve read westerns. I’ve read indians. (not exactly the same as westerns.) And there are other historicals. 

So, perhaps some writers would say, I must write x because it is ‘hot’ now.

But not me. I’m not necessarily against riding the wave or current trend. I’m no fashionista, or glamor goddess. But I know what I like. The same goes for writing. I write what I love. And I love history. American history. And why not start around the birth of our nation?

Theres a beginning trend now for this type of historical. I haven’t read much. And when I started this ambitious series, I had seen none. So, I felt a little aprehensive. Would this be accepted because there isn’t this out there right now. But I snapped out of it, quick-like. Whether there is or isn’t wasn’t going to stop the story. It had to be told. And I’m telling it. Where it goes from here, no one knows. So, am I part of a new movement? Did I [preconceive where the next trend was going? 

I don’t think so. I think I’m writing what I love and that perhaps, just maybe, someone else would like it too.

Ever reach that moment of exhaustion where delerium and genius meet? I think I’m there. Well, almost. Exhausted, yes. Genius. Well, that’s a stretch. I have the desire to write, but feel drained and really unmotivated at the moment. But if I think on it long enough, maybe something will happen. Hardly.

I wouldn’t say genius is merely a representation of one’s intelligence, but of their talent. And I have plenty. It’s like the untapped well of oil, awaiting dredging; Or the mine yet undiscovered of rare gems.

Yes, that’s what I am. My stories are rare gems waiting to be found, in the rough and polished. To find these treasures, one has to excavate my mind. Go spelunking and use a pick to get deep at the secret cache within. 

So my talent already shown is the teaser to the unaccessed raw ability I contain. That could be called potential, I guess.

I just know that sometimes I’m too tired to even think of picking up the pickaxe.

I have been on and off the fence regarding looking for a literary agent since I seriously started to pursue writing. I’m going very slowly, having half-way finished a work last year only to realize after contest subs that I needed to start over. Which I have. And for the better. But now I want to move forward. Not too fast, because I want to do it right and do well. 

I want to get a critique partner and polish up the first few chapters so that I can begin shopping my work around. I have little clue to which agents I should pursue. I have some clue to which publishers I will try. I want to ultimately aim for New York, I mean, who doesn’t, but should I aim small at first? There is an e-publisher whose lines have a perfect fit for me. I think I’ll go there. Dare I mention them? Ok. I will: The Wild Rose Press. They have an American Rose line. Excellent! It would be so perfect for the series I have planned and started. 

When I think on it, I get all fluttery in my belly. Excited, nerves, anxiety. but…

I don’t have anything completely ready to sub.

I’m surprised I haven’t been able to get a CP yet. Having one seems crucial to me. It is an integral part in being able to give your best. Having objective eyes looking at these words and characters is necessary so that I can offer my best. I just need to have the gumption to get it out there. I am wondering if waiting for a CP is worthwhile, even as badly as I need one. But I’ve been working on this one book for too long, and I refuse to lollygag. Part of the length of time is because I have been toying with it. But last year, It got real.

I wrote 150 pages. I was proud of and impressed with myself. But, it was dreck. I’ve been guided some since then and hopefully have managed to learn from what information I’ve been given. The work isn’t too terrible, I hope, to warrant a second look. I’ll polish as much as I can, but editing can be done still. Just like it. Like me. Believe in me.